This journal wanders about. It's poetry, reflections, snippets from other stories and ideas of others, and my own pot luck thoughts reflecting the transparent thinking of this post-traumatically stressed, majorly depressed social phobic before and after my breakdown.

November 21, 2008

Blogging (online journaling) is therapeutic and great writing practice. I know it's been said (!!) but changes DO occur in the brain when one has had a mental breakdown. I knew one woman who had a bad case of it (PTSD) - had her M.A. in French and after her breakdown couldn't speak the language at all anymore. I did think 'writing' was gone but blogging is helping me throw words around again and i'm happy about that.

Light and dark. The theme of eons and ages. A study for the theatre and all art forms. The scrutiny of psychiatry; the content of our lives. Every discipline infused with it. My favourite Psalm is 139 - "O, Lord, thou hast searched me and known me". David goes on to say that, to God/de - the light and dark are one. In the dark, light still exists. That has always given me hope.

Also "he who is without sin, cast the first stone" (think before judging; walk a mile in his mocassins) and "vengenance is mine, saith the Lord" (let go of the anger, just let go) and there are many more, of course, from that source but i am fortunate in having studied (and accepted in my heart) a body of ordinary (not necessarily scholarly) exegesis which is interpretative and not literal. God knows, we've got enough fundamentalists in the world.









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